Work....things had their annual blow up recently. About this time last year, I started looking for a new job. Then things got better at work, so I just stayed. And here we are again.
Here are the main problems:
- Company has grown alot in the past 2 years (over 200%!!!) without changing how things are done.
- Volume of work has increased beyond the hours that I work (and I am up to 32-35 hrs a week).
- People seem to make up their own rules, and there are no consequences for screw ups (I am not talking the occasional ones...I am talking repeatedly doing stuff wrong despite being talked to on several occasions).
- Still be busy, but not overwhelmed.
- Earn vacation time (Right now, when the office closes for holidays, snow....I don't get paid. Plus, I RARELY take any time off since I don't get paid. Once in a while I need a day to recharge my battery, and I don't take it.)
- Get rid of G-man's second job (if we were able to make the numbers work; we were going to save his checks and if we didn't need it, then we would get rid of the job....or revisit the debt, and how much longer he would have to work to get us to our goals)
Things deteriorated right before Christmas. I was taking the week of Christmas off, which we had planned since August. I even saved up money to compensate for my "loss of pay." But as we got closer to my vacation week....it all fell apart.
I was "punished" for taking the week off. Unreasonable expectations were given two days before I left. The rules for me became different than for everyone else. People were encouraged to give me anything and everything they had, with the expectation it would be done before I left. I spent 2 days in a frenzy trying to finish everything.
I came back, and no one had done a thing while I was gone. Since I "control" the flow of paper in our office, if things aren't faxed or filed in a timely manner, it builds up quickly. And there is NOTHING that I do that is so specialized that someone else couldn't take care of it themselves. It is just the "process" that you give it to me and then forget about it. I spent 2 days digging out, and then it was New Years day (which I brought work home). Then we had snow, and the office was closed for half day on Thursday and full day on Friday. And I worked from home.
I came back, and because of the way the dates fell....it was time to process data for December month end. So all the work I did had to be pushed aside for a moment. Meanwhile, the 12 hrs of closed office allowed 25 other staff members to catch up on work which they may have carried over from before Christmas (yeah...they were allowed to carry stuff over....I wasn't)
By Tuesday, I was in the weeds. I went to talk to my boss, who didn't seem to care, and seemed to blame me for it. I ended up staying until 8pm, and wrote him (and cc'ed the Clinical Supervisor) on the status of everything.
We talked about the volume, and he took one small thing off my plate, but not enough to really make a huge difference. We talked about the change in hours and pay status....I worked out schedules, PTO pro-ration, etc. Boss didn't say NO, but he really didn't say YES. The 36 hr week is a sticking point. He agreed to do it for 35 hrs a week for the moment (which would be 70 hrs a pay period), but then he wouldn't want me working any more that that. And then he would want me to go up to 40 hrs/wk in the summer, with a guarantee of schedule.
35 hrs a week won't help the G-man work situation. It isn't enough. Plus, it really isn't more than I am working now, which doesn't help the volume of work. And, we are still working on the summer schedule (that is another post as well), and at this moment in time, I can't tell him the EXACT schedule. He doesn't like that answer...even though he full well knows that alot of organizations haven't posted there summer information yet....but somehow expects me to have it.
Even as I type this, I know it sounds like I am the one who wants it all....and to some degree I do. I have been there 6 years, and by the nature of the business, everyone has a flexible schedule. But some of that is not extended to me. He wants me to plan out so far in advance that it isn't possible (he asked me in August 2013 what I was doing for April 2014 spring break).
So for now, I can increase my hours, but no change in employment status....AKA, no vacation time.
Additionally, I was told that the likelihood of pay increase was very small. Here we go again. I didn't even bring up salary, he did. But he contends that I am overpaid "for what I do" and I probably won't see much in of a raise in the future. I countered and said that the sheer volume of what I do has increased 4 fold, and if he is able to follow through on a few other things (more expansion of the company is planned)....it will continue to increase. It isn't the physical act, it is the number of times I have to do it! He doesn't see that volume=more work.
(if you are still here....good for you!)
So right now I am going to work as many hours as I can, and we are going to try and save 50% of G-man's second job check (we are estimating that my increase in hours will balance it out) for several months, and if we are able to save it, then we will know that we can safely apply that much to debt. We are hoping that we can make a big snowball payment to something at that time, and then be able to apply the money on a monthly basis there after.
I have found another job that I will be applying for this week (resume is fine....still working on the cover letter) Something in my gut says this isn't the right job, but I am going to apply and see how it goes. It might not turn into anything...it might be better than I think!
One of my big "issues" at the moment....is I don't know what I want to be when I grow up. My path has drastically changed, and I am not sure where to go. I don't want to make choices out of fear. But I am tired of working for people who "use" me, take credit for things, and overall my existence is to make them shine.
I have developed this craving for creativity. I go stir crazy without it. So I am trying to figure all of this out. And I am just a little lost in it all.
Sorry for the LONG post.....I am sure there are ways to make this shorter....but this is as good as it was gonna get without starting all over. Any suggestions what I should be when I grow up?