I will post more about the party fiasco later....but since yesterday, this has been at the fore front of my mind. The kids don't know yet. Bossy...as of right now, 1 friend is coming, and MY friend and her son (so I guess that makes 2 kids). He will be fine with that.
And it is weighing on me how to tell Sassy. I have confirmed now that 2 of the 3 girls invited are NOT coming.
I am so mentally exhausted at this point. It is starting to effect me physically, where my stomach is sick. My sleep is disrupted. I don't like this.
So I am trying to channel the upset into something more productive. I am trying not to eat....because that opens another can of worms. Trying not to spend money....again, Pandora's Box there. So I have to turn to another vice....cleaning and organization!
I am down to 10 items on the "31" To-Do list. And there is a good chance that at least 3-4 of those will get done when I get home from work today. We won't talk about the new To-do list yet. I am really trying to finish that first list before I tackle the next list. I am focusing on the feeling of crossing things off....the feeling of completion.
As I have been cleaning...I am putting that extra effort behind it. Being upset will do that to you. It is fuel for the fire. We are closing out the month in a few days....it would be nice to have things DONE and start fresh. Of course, the catch behind all of this is that the events are actually Oct 1 and 2, so while I am scrubbing away the week, I am just getting closer to the weekend.
If it isn't one thing...it is another.