Thursday, May 8, 2014

Still here, still not 100%

I know I promised a reset post....but I am reneging on that promise at the moment.  I have it partially done.  Swear!   This week has gotten away from me, and all I have to say on that is....sorry! 

I am mentally exhausted, and I have been sleeping on the couch this week....and my body feels it.  I slept in my bed last night, but it will take a few days to work out the kinks.  I was in the middle of a dream when the alarm went off, and now I can't seem to wake up.  I did all the morning kid perfunctory things....but I could easily go back to sleep.

I am still struggling with the aftermath of my birthday.  This is going to take me awhile to move past.  When I get "angry," it is usually a flare up, and then it is over.  When I get "hurt," it tends to take a deep root, and I have to process and over process everything.  

I am looking forward to having coffee with a friend this evening, my monthly Reiki session tomorrow, and then....

*wait for it*


FIVE whole hours to myself on Saturday!!!  No husband, no kids.  Just me, myself, and I.  Both kids have activities (field trip for her, scout work day for him), and G-man will be at work.  This is an extremely rare occurrence!!  If the weather holds up, then my tushie will be on the deck, enjoying the sun and reading.  If the weather doesn't hold up, I will figure out some craft project to play with. 

Either way, I am not doing laundry, scrubbing toilets, or cleaning out the cat box.

Sunday is Mother's Day.  Our tradition is to get flowers for the front bed and I plant and mulch them.  We are grilling for dinner....no idea what we are grilling other than squash.....but food will be grilled.

I should be back on track by next week.  Other than the reset....what would you like to hear about???? 

12 comments:

  1. I'm glad to hear you're feeling a bit better. A reiki session sounds wonderful! I've only had one and loved it :) I just wish I could afford it more often. Along with regular massages lol.

    Enjoy your Saturday! I love Saturdays, usually the BF goes to work at noon and I piddle around the house til 7.

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    1. I love Reiki. I try and go every 4-6 weeks. I have had some AMAZING spiritual experiences. As for massage....the few professional massages I have had didn't do it for me. But I am all for something that helps you relax.

      I would love to piddle around for 7 hrs...but I will take my 5 hrs, even though is probably closer to 4.5 hrs once I factor in driving time. Cross your fingers that it is warm enough to be outside.

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  2. Hon, I suspect you are still carrying around some hurt you have not dealt with and processed properly. It may be worth exploring your feelings with a counsellor or therapist, for your own well-being and happiness. Enjoy your Saturday afternoon to yourself! :)

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    1. Oh, I didn't say I was done with the hurt. Not in the least!! And I see a therapist every other week already....just so happens that this was a non-appt week. So we will be discussing this next week. :)

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  3. Wait, who said the hurful stuff??? your hubby?? sorry your parents forgot... I guess I don't know how your family works but here we tend to overcelebrate the birthdays, how can a parent forget???

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    1. Yes, Hubby did. He said something wildly inappropriate WHILE I was opening my gift, continued to stick his foot in his mouth, and in the process of trying to make it better, he made it oh so much worse. End result...I made him return my gift because I didn't want it any more.

      And yes, my parents forgot my birthday. This is the 4th year in a row that something has happened. But they actually put in the e-mail that they lost track of time and forgot. Welcome to my family.

      Last year they forgot to include a "gift" in the kids' cards...and called me to have me put $15 in each card.

      November 2012 we went to visit them and during dinner I mentioned G-man's birthday (which was only a few days earlier which they didn't acknowledge)....and right there at dinner they said they forgot....didn't even wish him a happy belated birthday once it was brought to their attention.

      I could go on and on....

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  4. You are so much like me when it comes to emotions we could be sisters. i rehash and rehash and I hate it. I am getting better with age, but it is hard. I love you!

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    1. You can be my honorary sister. :)

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  5. I have had a rough week myself, so I can definitely sympathize. Had a major blowup with my mom! Why does she still have so much power over me?! I'm almost 40, have been married 20 years, and have raised a child of my own. Yet, she still makes me feel like I'm 12. I am sending positive thoughts your way and I hope you have a bright and beautiful day on Saturday! :)

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    1. Wanna know how many sessions I have had over the years regarding my parents' power over me? Girl...I so know that tune!

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  6. Hope you had a nice Mother's Day! :)

    I thought you were done with your parents a couple of years ago? You have the power to not let them do this to you & your kids... Just have to exercise that right. ;)

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    1. While I was annoyed with my parents....what happened had more to do with G-man than anyone else. I am done with my parents, but was attempting to maintain a civility with them because of my kids....which isn't working.

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