So the other day I told you about our new contract at work. Boss and I really hadn't talked much about what that will mean for me. Yesterday, there was sort of a segue, so I took the opportunity to say "let me know when you are ready to talk."
He sort of looked at me weird, with the "what would we have to talk about?" look. That is never a good sign.
He just said that in the next 12 months, it will probably mean more evaluations (which I knew), and that he may take some of my work away and outsource it to leave me time to process other things. In other words, he has no plans on increasing my hours. Additionally, he is leaving me the photocopies and filing. If that happens, I will be nothing more than an office grunt.
My feelings were terribly hurt. I left it at "I can work more hours, so let me know when you are ready to talk." But I don't foresee that happening.
Part of my job (that required alot of time and understanding) was taken away over a year ago because of a State decision. The company that was hired as the outsource has done a lousy job, and our overall numbers went down. Not my problem...but it does show that I was doing a better job than the outsourced company.
He is basically telling me that while our company will be growing, I won't. I have been there 4 years, and I know the paperwork better than anyone. I am reliable, timely, and do anything and everything. I organize and clean out. I follow behind everyone and fix all their errors (which my boss has instructed me to do). And I am going to get reduced to a glorified copy girl. This also means that he probably doesn't have any plans on giving me a raise....as a glorified copy girl wouldn't make any more than what I am now (and as he has already told me in the past....I am paid more than most companies pay for "my position" which doesn't have a title or anything official. Actually when people come into the office, IF he introduces me, it is "and Mysti helps out.")
I love the people I work with. I love the flexibility I have. But I do so much more than what I am given credit for. I hear him on the phone pointing out all the things that I brought to his attention, and taking them as his own. I am not going to just sit back and be reduced to nothing.
So, I think it is time for me to step up my looking for a new position. I know there will be alot of guilt on my part for leaving (and I won't leave until I have another job). I will feel like I am leaving him in a lurch. But then MAYBE he will realize all that I do.
I am just sad. Sad that I helped him grow his company for 4 years, and that all of the accolades of our company are in part to my work....yet, all he sees me as is a grunt. I have spoken to him in the past about this, and he brushes me off.
No more. If he really is looking at the bottom line, let him hire some High School Grad to make photo copies. He can pay them half of what he pays me. Let him find out what it is to really have just a grunt.