I can complain about our debt if I want to. The fact still remains that complaining doesn't change it.
Our mini-spending spree on Monday didn't help. I have no one to blame but myself on that one.
Here's the root of the matter....our stuff if worn out, broken, stained, old, and getting worse and worse. The majority of our stuff is from when we got married in 1998 (or before). And it looks it. Then I feel bad that it looks so bad. So I want to "beautify" around it. So I do. It isn't much individually....just when you see it added up....it takes on another life.
I would be better off NOT doing it...and taking the money I would have spent, and put it in a pile for new BIG purchases. But that isn't what I do.
Heck....we ALMOST bought a new TV on Monday...which would have also required a new TV stand. We didn't....but it was close.
I am frustrated at myself. I am frustrated at our budget. Our budget doesn't allow for much extra...and recently, when we have had extra (in the form of overtime) it seems to have gone to the pool, the car....so this time...it went to US.
I am overwhelmed at home at the moment. Work is a mess, and the bad juju around here is taking its toll on me. It is raining. School stuff is a mess. I am upset that I have now gained back all the weight that I lost, and virtually have to start over.
I don't know the key to balance. It is feast or famine. I either have it all under control, or none of it.
I am sick of all the mess. The debt....it is really weighing on me. I figured out what we would need to pay on a monthly basis to be out of debt by my 40th birthday. And that will require finding a CONSISTANT $600 more a month. And that is assuming that we NEVER go over budget, nothing changes, and oh yeah....nothing breaks.
Can I have a do-over???