Wednesday, May 6, 2015


Monday was my 40th birthday.  May the fourth be with you.

My birthday gift(s) to myself included taking the day off of work (with the thought that since it happened to be day 1 of the payperiod, I would have 2 weeks to make up the time here and there), a reiki session (if you haven't tried this, I highly recommend it), and NOT dealing with the house/move for the day.

Parts 1 and 2 were successful...part 3 not so much....but that is a discussion for another time.

I received lots of text well wishes over the day....and as it worked out, they were spaced out.  The reason this was sort of fun is that the program I use for texting has a built in .GIF of falling birthday cakes when you either send or receive "happy birthday."  It was fun all day long to look at my phone and see falling cakes.  (Pumpkins fall on Halloween, and Christmas trees on Christmas!).

My friends came over and brought dinner and cake.  It was so thoughtful and we all had a nice time.  One of the girls is a "Survivor" fan, so Bossy loved talking about the show with her. My parents even remember to call!  I got a very strange card from them which further proves how far they have deteriorated.  Very strange.

G-man and the kids were probably the thorn in the otherwise terrific day.  This has brought up all sorts of other things which is now throwing me off.  Too many thoughts in my head.

I am so NOT where I thought I would be at 40.  But this is where I the only choice is to accept that this is what it is now, and I can only move forward.  I am ready to shake it all up.  Because there are alot of things that just aren't working.  I feel like my life is a big jigsaw puzzle and I am forcing pieces to fit together.  They don't make a picture.  The blue sky piece doesn't fit in the middle of the red barn no matter how you turn it.

So happy 40th birthday to me....may the next 40 years be eventful in a totally different way than the first 40!


  1. Happy Birthday! Glad you had a (mostly) nice day!!

  2. Sounds like a wonderful birthday. I found 40 far easier than 30, though I too, felt like I wasn't where I wanted to be.

  3. Happy birthday! I will have to try reiki, sounds interesting. Yep, when I turned 40, I was thinking "where in the hell am I going?" So far though, I am coming into my own in the 40s.

  4. Happy belated Birthday my friend!

  5. Happy birthday. I was the same a few months ago, just before my 40th. I kind of left most of those thoughts behind when I was 27 for some reason - that's just the age where it seemed like I was now grown-up, so every birthday is going to be pretty much the same. But I did have a lot of thoughts coming up to 40 about how I thought my life would be vs. the reality of it (highlight: if you'd asked me at 17 I would have been certain that at 40 I'd be looking forward to becoming a granny in the next few years. Reality, it doesn't look like I'll ever have kids, never mind grandkids!)
    So far, I have to admit, and I do think it's just a big coincidence really, 40 has been a pretty good year for me.
    Reiki is fabulous IF you have a good practitioner. It was starting reiki sessions when I was about 28 that eventually led me to starting therapy for a sometimes pretty serious depression. I was really lucky to have a great woman doing it though. A few years later I decided to treat myself to a session and went to someone else - I was, to say the least, underwhelmed. It's great if you've found someone you like for it.

  6. Happy 40th!! I turned 40 on April 19th. No other number bothered me but 40 was different. Hope this is your best year yet.

  7. Happy belated 40th to you!! I'm 47 & this is the birthday that was hardest for me because my grandpa was 47 when he died of a heart attack. That MAY have been part of my motivation for joining a gym.

  8. Happy belated Birthday, Mysti!!

  9. Aw girl Happy Birthday to you! I've head nothing but good things about Club 40. I am sure you will rock the next 40 years.