I decided over the holidays that I need to move on from my job. I also decided that I do not want to be in "admin" anymore. I have spent most of my adult life in jobs that I did all the work....someone else got all the glory. I am VERY GOOD at it. I won't bore you with my work history, but it is a string of jobs that were designed to make someone with an over-inflated ego look even better. The common themes of my work history are: Underpaid for what I actually did, Bosses who took all the credit, Bottom of the totem pole.
My plan was to plug away at my current job, while looking for a new one. I wanted something that got closer to my field of study (my M.Ed. is Elementary Education) or at least wasn't just being an underpaid grunt to someone else, and also closer to my home (I drive 25 miles each way....I was trying to keep it under 10.....save some gas).
I went into work yesterday (with very little voice from being sick), and my boss starts off that "maybe it is a good thing I can't talk, so I can listen." He proceeds to go on for 45 min about the perception that I am unhappy in the past weeks (um, yeah....because 10 of 13 of your staff screwed up royally right before Christmas....and yours truly had to fix it all), and people are avoiding the office because of ME. Additionally, that this is their safe haven, and I have to be pleasant and nice all the time. I am allowed to vent to him or to D, but outside of their offices, my job is to be happy about everything.
He went on about how he knows I have too much work to do in the time allotted, and when thrown a curveball, it does mess up my delicate balance. So he made a few changes. He took away the one part of my job I liked....to make room for more stuff I don't like....because no one else likes it either, it isn't getting done.....so now I have to do it.
There is much more to it. Put he left it as: If you don't like your job anymore, I can accept that. But I need someone who does. I want you to be in this job. But if you don't want to, then ok. Take a week to think about it.
He wants in a week for me to accept all his terms and be happy about it. As I said, there was ALOT more to it, but I would be writing a novel....
In a week, I feel like I have to quit. I don't want to quit without having a job, but I also know compromise isn't in the cards. He and I have been negotiating my job for years, and he won't budge. He wants a clerical job, with clerical pay....but the benefits of having an analyst and auditor.
I don't accept what he says. He doesn't understand what I do (and we have discussed it many many MANY times). He won't pay me for what I actually do "because that isn't what the job is" yet that IS what the job is. He will find that out when someone else does it....and all the "extra" stuff I do doesn't get done.
I was embarrassed. I was angry. I was disappointed. How am I supposed to stay?
My plan at this point....until I come up with a better one.....is to write him a long, well thought out letter. It will not only include my counterpoints, but also a VERY detailed list/explanation of what I do. Beyond that....dunno.
But I have a really sinking feeling that I am going to be waitressing for awhile....
Ask what you want....all ideas are welcome.
ETA: I am overwhelmed at the responses. I do want to clarify a few things though:
1) The office I work in is very small. There aren't "departments". There is Boss, Clinical Supervisor, and then licensed professionals (which for the record, I could qualify as if I wanted to go that route) who work in the field (family homes). And me. There is no HR to go to. There is no "transfer" anywhere. This isn't a corporate environment. My boss is not "business" trained. He was a field guy who decided to open his own company.
2) There is no job title to what I do. This has been a sticking point since I started. He refuses to give me a "title", therefore allowing me to compare my job to other jobs. It has sort of been "make it up as you go." When I mentioned I do more of an "analyst" job....there is not an analyst job. I meant, alot of what I do is analyze the documents, find the problems and get them fixed before they become a BIG problem. You can call it an auditor type job too.
3) My work attitude. I am NOT saying I don't get grumpy. I am NOT saying that I don't get annoyed. I do. We all do. However...and this one part I didn't get into above...I have talked to Boss and Clinical Supervisor until I am blue in the face regarding some issues. And I have been told ok...they will look into it. And nothing happens. So we start again.....here are the 45 issues TODAY.....and nothing happens.
There was ONE time in the last month where I got really upset with someone.....cooled off....and apologized after. The person who complained about my attitude (and it was not Boss who said I had a bad attitude, it was someone else...and not the person who was involved in the squabble) felt that I didn't like my job, was stressed, and didn't like that I took it out on this person (which again....was already taken care of.....and yes, the person I got upset with was the one who made a HUGE MESS of something and left me holding the bag). My boss said "you are a nice person....I know you are." But he wants "the girls" to be able to come to the office and whine and vent, and I am supposed to just take it. Additionally, during the conversation (which I use loosely since I just sat there), I was not told of any specific incident, just that someone told him they were avoiding the office. I was not asked about any of this. I was told it as "fact" without sharing any of my side.
On a side note, the girls work in the field. Typically they stop in to the office a few times a week....sometimes for as little as 5 minutes.....but usually for about 30-45 min. Otherwise, I am typically ALONE in the office. And by alone.....I mean, ALONE.
4) I am not worried about my resume. If I quit and waited tables for a while....that wouldn't go on there. I already have a gap from when the kids were young. If anything, I am more worried that I have too much Admin experience and not as much in other areas.
5) I am not worried about a reference, as my boss doesn't give them, good or bad....for anyone. Per standard HR type practice, he will confirm dates of employment. Period.
I will say this....today....he was sweet as pie to me. And he sent me work that he said yesterday he was taking away. I think he may have realized he took it a little far....and was trying to backtrack some.