Now that my temper tantrum is over....it is time to put on my big girl panties and pick myself up.
I am having to readjust my perspective. I don't want to...but for the sake of sanity....I have to. I write these goals that are lofty, yet seem reasonable. I have plans on paper that just don't work. I am unrealistic about some of our circumstances.
So it is time to become realistic.
- Getting out of consumer debt by my 40th birthday.....probably not going to happen.
- Upgrading furniture/electronics...not happening.
- Food...it is for nourishment. Someday it will be about pleasure again, but it is really about nourishment.
- I need to talk to G-man about some resentments I am harboring....
I am not always going to like it. But I am a grown up. And it is time to suck it up.
There are actually 2 parts to all of this....one is the financial part. The other is the ME part. ME...in terms of constant anxiety, and self sacrifice to the point where I just want to do a 180 and be a princess for awhile. ME, in terms of spirituality in my life, and finding out who I am.
I am not happy about any aspect of my life. And in order for anything to work....I need to find it.
I think you will see some changes around here soon.....