Blogs are funny.....some people use them more as an educational tool....some use them more as a journal....some are a pictorial of your life.
Mine is definitely more journal-esque. Although I guess there is an element of education (as in....don't do what I did!!!). If I go and re-read older posts, I can totally feel what mood I was in that day. Down in the dumps? Energetic? Pensive?
Yesterday I was down in the dumps and suffering from a serious case of the wants. It doesn't mean I am actually going to ACT on the feeling.....just getting it on "paper" (screen?).
I am not going to go out and buy new furniture. My conscience wouldn't let me do it. Trust me. I have done this dance many many MANY times. I want it....I look at it on line....I think about it....but obviously I haven't done it.
This doesn't mean I won't visit it again, and again. I will. If you don't like that....don't read that post.
Part of my honesty is that we have a situation that largely is out of our control. I have been told to cut more out....that we are indulgent.....quit complaining and just do something about it. Well.....we are trying.
Maybe you don't think so....I am ok with that.
I will never be able to nail down an "out of debt" date. Our budget as it is right now....we are paying the minimums on just about everything. This isn't about slowing down our debt repayment...it is about the total lack of money to just exist.
I ask you....if your mortgage went up...and over 1/3 of it was just for taxes, and your student loans, and your car broke down constantly....if your husband had an affair, and you had a child with Autism....if you paid 3x more for heat than you did for electricity.....if you worked, and volunteered, and ran your kids all over the place on your own, while your husband worked 60 hrs a week, including nights and weekends....
1) Would you get down about your situation sometimes, and
2) Could you do it any better?
I need to work through alot of things right now....and my blog will be part of that. I am wonderful on paper....execution of things is more tenuous. But I am trying. I get up everyday and know exactly what my situation is....I am not in denial. But sometimes waking up to MY situation....is just a little overwhelming, and I need a release.